sometimes i wonder what it would be like to check myself into the psych ward. i wonder how helpful that would be. if i would be able to come to terms with parts of me that i'm feeling stangely about. i'm curious as to if i would see myself in another way, and if i would change at all. things have happened to me that could have possibly put me into a bad mental state, but somehow i have prevailed. i'm never sure if i am going to eventually break. i'm surprised that i haven't broken yet. help might be nice. no, help would be nice.
